Go With the Floe Gliding through time in Glacier Bay by Kim Heacox
During the first summer of what would become a 25-year love affair with Alaska, Kim Heacox was a fresh-faced seasonal park ranger discovering Glacier Bay National Park and Preserve. In The Only Kayak (Lyons Press, 2005), Heacox chronicles the impact the "last wild shore, 900 miles north of Seattle and 900 years in the past," has had on him. The book begins with his first paddling trip among Alaska's glaciers, a tale Sierra has adapted here.
YOU PADDLE A CANOE; YOU WEAR A KAYAK.
It was my first day in wild Alaska. Rudder down. Life vest on. The whereabouts of my tide tables, map, and compass escaped me. I couldn't find them and didn't care as I approached the luminous tidewater face of Reid Glacier.
Blue minarets of ice tipped away at precarious angles. Others stood as fractured fins and flying buttresses 200 feet tall, certain to fall any day. Any minute. A light rain washed the ice and rock, the kayak, and me. Delicate streams dripped off my hat into Reid Inlet, where each droplet beaded diamond-like before joining the great whole of the silt-laden sea. Birds called in dialects of kittiwake and tern. A harbor seal watched me with obsidian eyes, only its head above the water, its whiskered face a cipher of mistrust. Long memory, no doubt, from when Tlingit Indians hunted seals in boats of similar design.
Icebergs surrounded me, this one a castle, that one a swan, each a corridor into the magic we know as children but lose as adults.
My knees were braced against the inside of the kayak. My gear was packed in plastic garbage bags stuffed into compartments forward and aft. Not much room to maneuver. My feet operated pedals connected to thin cables that controlled the rudder. Push on the left pedal and the kayak went left; push on the right and it went right. Sit still and it obeyed the higher calling of wind and tides.
I glided forward, thinking that a kayaker's passage through Glacier Bay is more like that of light through water, a refraction, a silent process of changing--and being changed--with each pull of the paddle and chant of the rain, each soft landing of snowflake on icefield. You hear the idioms of ice, the crystals cracking, the glacier groaning. You brace for the icefall that doesn't come because the glacier has more patience than you. You think about geologic time, the depth of an epoch, the tiny tenure of a single human life.
I stopped paddling yet continued moving forward as I shared my fate with Richard Steele, a boatman of mysterious pedigree and questionable nautical skill, who managed to torque our two-man kayak with each exuberant stroke. A big-shouldered, deep-chested fellow, Richard, when he paddled, didn't pull himself forward so much as he pushed the ocean behind. As best I could tell, he didn't intend to stop until we rammed the glacier. I wondered if he had his boots on the wrong feet, or if he flossed with twine. Three hundred yards from the blue ice wall. Two hundred and fifty, maybe 200. Hard to tell in an uncalibrated place.
"Uh, Richard," I said, "you think we're close enough?"
He stopped paddling.
We drifted among ice like so many stars in the sky. Constellations of ice. I scooped up one chunk in my hand. Shaped like an awl, with a sharp tip and a smooth, rounded grasp, it appeared as clear and delicate as glass.
From his sinking shoulders, I could read Richard's disappointment. He wanted an icefall. He wanted the glacier to perform. His head twitched, and he seemed to pace even when seated. The rain drummed steady as Ravel's Bolero as the sea chewed away at the glacial underpinnings, yet everything was eerily still.
Our map told us the surrounding mountains were 6,000 feet high. But the mapmakers were city fellows who didn't come out here. They offered no corrections for the imagination, which itself is a wild place.
We paddled to shore, if it could be called paddling. Our broad-beamed kayak was a boat with hips. In our attempt to slalom through the icebergs, we swaggered and hit every other one. The smaller bergs we glided over. Their percussive music tapped our hull. Hundreds of bergs bejeweled the shore where the receding tide had abandoned them. Holy bergs, they seemed to glow from within, each with its own lambent light. We extricated ourselves from our kayak and walked among them. Richard estimated they weighed tens of tons.
He took off for the glacier, half a mile away, said he wanted to "investigate" an ice cave in its flank. Perhaps walk into it. He moved over the rocky, mossy slope like a fullback. His powerful chest and arms were those of an eagle, a great soaring bird that by comparison made a hardworking heron of me.
I HAD MET RICHARD A WEEK BEFORE when our National Park Service supervisor introduced us in a Juneau grocery store and told us we'd be roommates in Glacier Bay for the summer. Richard squared up to me and shook my hand gently, a surprising gesture from the big-shouldered man. He pushed his cart down the aisle and threw in boxes and bags. Twenty pounds of popcorn, ten pounds of spaghetti, a weightlifter's bag of flour, a vat of yogurt, a tub of honey, and four large jars of peanut butter. Richard said, "I'm going kayaking for a week. You want to come along?"
He talked about kayaks and how Native Alaskans had been perfecting them for 5,000 years. Swift and silent, the Native kayaker wore a hat made of wood with a long visor to shed the rain. Believing that seals loved beauty, the wife made the hat ornate so her husband could approach them closely. He used a sea lion bladder for a canteen or filled it with air as a buoyancy bag. He used a small gaff to haul in fish and a large gaff to haul himself onto ice floes. When a storm blew, the hunter would take refuge in a bed of kelp, the forest of the sea, and wrap the long fronds around his little boat. Snuggle deep into the hull to wait for the waters to lie down.
As Richard spoke, he seemed to become a hunter himself, though he had no wife and no wooden hat, and the kayak he intended to use was an old fiberglass hog patched with duct tape and glue.
"Still," he said, "a kayak is special. It's something you..."
"Something you wear?" I said.
"Right, it's something you wear. How much beer should we get?" He loaded four cases into the bulging cart, and a bottle of whiskey, and headed for the checkout stand.
IN REID INLET WE WERE TWO MEN in a little boat, rookie park rangers in Alaska who had no idea what we were doing. Richard had come from the Everglades, I from Death Valley. To say we were naive would have been generous. From reading our embellished summer park ranger applications, you'd have thought we were Leatherstocking and Black Elk, brother hunters in the wilderness, sons of the earth.
We had only a topographic map that showed Reid Inlet as a tiny blue smudge on a vast arc of the wildest coast in North America, a tectonic jumble of mountains, glaciers, rivers, inlets, and coves without a single trail or road. Our rain gear lasted ten minutes before it started to leak. A wind blew off the glacier with no hint of sympathy. We had no thermometer, other than our red and runny noses. Richard had cracked our only compass.
"Don't worry," he said as he barreled off to explore Reid Glacier. "We don't always want to know where we're going."
All that night the glacier calved columns of ice into the sea. Pleistocene thunder filled our dreams until sometime before dawn. Unable to sleep, we climbed from our tent and sat on the ground with our legs crossed and our backs against the cold. Like two monks before heaven, we watched one icefall after another, each more illuminated than the one before in the emerging light of day.